Noizes Always Flailing Aimlessly Into INFINITY!

I got a hell of a wake up call during the past couple of months! On top of my health taking a downward slide (through nobody’s fault but my own) , I finally experienced the reality of the corporate world for the last time! I have had enough, and I am ready to get the hell out the first real chance I get!

Don’t get me wrong, I am more than grateful for this job; believe me, I have had way worse! No, it’s just that at over 40 years old, I finally realized that, in the corporate world, the worker is treated like a puddle of piss, even by their immediate, sub-low level ’superiors’.

Your intelligence and integrity does not matter to these 9 to 5 drones, because in their eyes, you are an animal. To your boss and to his bosses, there is no difference between an employee who spends his evenings trying to better himself and an employee who spends his drinking until he passes out!

I am sick and fucking tired of being treated like a low-life because of who I am. I cannot help that I didn’t get to choose which social class I was born into. I also didn’t ask to be cursed with my intellect and abilities. So-called ‘gifts’ like these are truly wasted on people like me, because nobody cares about that down here; all it does is get you ridiculed and shunned by your ‘peers’ and disdained by your ‘betters’.

And so it ends this year; 2010 will be the year I leave the bullshit of company politics behind me forever! My boss, an honest, thoughtful guy, basically made me realize that the majority of warehouse workers are animals in the purest sense of the word, and he is right! I have worked warehouses, landscaping, and construction most of my life, and I have labored with some really creepy characters in my time.

Anyway, that bit of social reality has finally made me realize that I will always be looked at in the corporate world as an animal because I do the dirty work! Again, my intelligence and character has no bearing whatsoever on how my higher-ups at the plant view me. To them, I am merely the smartest ape in their zoo!

So I decided that if I am going to enter my golden years with any dignity whatsoever, I have to get out of that bullshit, and do it immediately! The only way to not be treated like a beast is to leave the corporate environment that rewards ass-kissing, brown-nosing, back-stabbing, and social climbing as blatantly as it ignores hard work, intelligence, and dependability.

Sometimes, my situation reminds me of Brian Griffin (that’s the dog from “Family Guy”, for those of you who don’t know). Brian is more intellectual and intelligent than any of the humans in Quahog. He is an aspiring writer who can be articulate, thoughtful, cultured, and very well-read. But in spite of his superior intellect, he is still just a dog. I can identify so much with Brian, because in spite of constantly proving my mind, spirit, and character to the suits, they will always see me as ‘just a dog’.

Here’s to hopin’ that 2010 is the year I get my wings and start to see some real success from my writing and my music. I am willing to take any opportunity offered for writing and music gigs, even if it means having to leave the phony security of some J-O-B. I know I am more than competent enough to make excellent money doing what I love. I need to do this immediately, because I am OVER working my ass off at a mind-numbing, dead-end job for people who look at me as some beast of burden!

I used the excuse “I need to keep the paycheck coming so I can afford to write” for the last time. This year, I will make my own breaks, and when I finally get mine, it’s goodbye to that shark-infested cesspool of office politics once and for all!